Post by nobodyspecail07 on Aug 3, 2019 23:33:24 GMT -8
I have come into somwthing rather indescribable. It has been 3 years since this...epiphany, if you will. It hit me in a very big way..shattered everything I thought I knew, everything I took for granted. I had never heard of this world of spiritual seeking until this hit me, and I looked into it to see if I could pin point exactly what it is...it is not this enlightenment these gurus pedal in the marketplace...it is like a fire, an innate energy that for whatever reason "awakens" within the body...If I had any hardcore religous upbringing it could've been even more dangerous...one may begin to believe he is god in the religous sense. I wouldnt recommend anyone seek this sort of thing out...the way they describe enlightenment, liberation, whatever you want to call it, is misleading. The last question I posed to "myself" (I see no entity that I can point to seperate from this body, so as far as I am concerned the self does not exist, "I" do not exist, only the word..used for purposes of simple communication orherwise this thing operates like a computer, a well oiled machine). The danger seeems to be that the society is not interested in a man at peace with himself..it needs to maintain its status quo, of making money...that is all bound for failure. Anyone with the simple eyes to see can clearly see this. Theres no place in this world for me any longer. I'm not uncomfortable in the sense that I'm self desctructive or any such thing...i see no difference between me and any other living species in this world..it really is all one thing...expressing itself in many different illusory ways, all springing from the same source. The techniques given to us and promoted as something that will solve all our problems (meditation being a big one) are misleading and misguided. Meditation can drive one insane if done right and done long enough I can say that because I have used that "technique" and for quite a while..no more. I dont no anymore how to live in this world...a world created by the religous thinking of man. That is the heart of the problem if there is any...this place is already a paradise...there is no need to look to a non existent future..let alone something AFTER "life"...that makes no sense..paradise "heaven" is here now. But the thinking that there will be heaven after is the very thing creating a hell on this planet...this body has an innate and incredible energy of its own..it needs no help from me or you let alone some outside entity. It really is all one thing expressing itself in many different very illusory ways..because it all springs from the same source of energy..there is no need to go SEEKING these ideas of liberation out, you already have "it" (your idea of it put there by these self proclaimed holy men is not anything like it), all that you will do is burn yourself out. I never told myself I was looking for anything but I suppose we all are whether we know it or not...anyway enough..rambling now. A subjective perspective from nobodyspecial. Thanks.