Needing Advice/Guidance

[jersey]

Hi all,

I’ll try to be as brief as I can, but I’m told I’m quite ‘wordy’ so I apologize in advance.

I believe I was in crisis 20 years ago with my awakening. I shut down.
This past year I have had lots of things revealed to me and I am now ready and accepting. I began meditating for the first time in 20 years. I’m embracing it all. I’m trying. Now... until about 10 days ago.

My adult daughter has resided back home with me for the past year and a half, before that she had moved out for about 5 months after living back home for a year prior. She has 4 children. I adore my grandchildren. I’m basically raising them. I have supported her and my 4 grandchildren.

About 10 days ago my credit ran out, money is tight. And I am thinking my adult daughter is narcissistic? She is really cutting me down. Mocking my meditation time and self time. Bringing me so low I’m having a difficult time meditating at all. She’s basically not living here, she eats and sleeps elsewhere and is only nice when she needs to borrow money or needs something. Yet my 4 grandchildren are still with me, only because her and her bf don’t have their own place.

Her venom is taking its toll on me. I was making good headway with my meditation and spirituality. But I’m finding it difficult now with all the emotional muck she is slinging my way. Everything it seems is my fault. She is deflecting and redirecting. I’m needing help now and she has said in no uncertain terms that she will not help.

How does one deal with a narcissistic person and manage to grow spiritually? I can’t not deal with her because I’m the stabilizing factor for my grandchildren.

It almost feels like I’m being sabotaged. Does that make any sense to anyone out there? I’m struggling as it is with my spirituality. I feel broken after shutting down 20 years ago. I feel like I’m in quicksand. Stuck. And now all of this with her, the negativity is really impacting me.

I have empathic abilities among others and while they aren’t as strong as 20 years ago, I do pick up on negative energy. And I feel like I’m getting repeatedly sucker punched. Like I’m being hit with a tidal wave and drowning. I’m trying to separate her from me but her negativity is so overwhelming I’m not sure what to do anymore.

I use incense, I have crystals, I wear black obsidian at all times. I light my candles and I close my bedroom door when I’m able to and attempt to meditate. I play binaural beats as I fall asleep, when I’m able to sleep. I’ve started suffering severe insomnia, I believe from the constant bombardment of negativity from her.

I’m going to try a salt bath and add that along with bay leaf to my normal baking soda bath and see if that helps.

I also have Akashic Record readings starting in the next few days and I’m hoping that will help. I just hope all this negative mud slinging won’t effect that.

I can’t believe she’s started mocking me. I was dealing with all her negative gunk until she started mocking my meditation and beliefs. I don’t know why that should effect me so much. But she’s become down right verbally abusive since I’m no longer any use to her.

It’s messing with my mojo big time.

Anyone out there have any experience with dealing with such deep, overwhelming negativity and/or narcissistic persons? Any advice or guidance you can offer in getting through and managing?
Can a negative, narcissistic person really impede ones spiritual growth and hinder their path? I know I should look at this as a lesson, but I’m finding it hard to see the lesson. Unless it’s not to be played a fool. I’m trying to take care of my house so to say. Maybe someone else can see a lesson more clearly?

Anyhoo, all comments welcome. Thank you so much!

Love & Light,
Jersey

[WeAreAllOne]

Jan 19, 2019 8:28:15 GMT -8 jersey said:

Anyhoo, all comments welcome. Thank you so much!

Love & Light,
Jersey

Hello Jersey

That is a lot to take in, and I imagine is a very stressful situation to be in. It goes to show however that you are a very good guardian for your grandchildren and are doing a good job! You are doing a lot for them as well as your daughter. It is unfortunate that she is negative and chooses to treat you this way regardless of everything you have done and continue to do for her and her kids. Have you tried getting through to her and seeing if she can understand what she is doing and perhaps shine some self awareness on how she is treating those around her? I know what you mean when it feels like you are being sabotaged. It can totally hinder and hurt your own interest into pursuing further spiritual matters or opening up to others about it.

Is she expected to be there with her kids for a while? If she was out of the house and on their own it would help tremendously with your inner peace and continued inner-growth but I do not know the full situation here. One could also say maybe it is a lesson in itself and will help you grow tremendously in the end and further help your spirituality. It is hard to say for sure from an outside perspective and if you were to meditate on all of these (if you were to be able to find the quiet time to do so) you may be able to get to the root of all this. With your akashic reading too this too should help push you further along.

If you are picking up on all of this surrounding negative energy and her continued negative judgements and attacks, it can soak in like a sponge. This happens a lot with empathetic people and can be a very stressful buildup of negative energy that just gets absorbed when being surrounded by people that just off-put so much toxicity. Regardless hopefully some boundaries can be set or just trying to limit contact with her can be beneficial. It is hard to say for certain and I am hesitant to say a whole lot because I would not want to say the wrong thing here or offer a bad piece of advice. This will improve and get better and hopefully it helps boost your spiritual growth and inner journey.

Salt baths and a lot of detoxing and cleansing and self love and care really go a long way in helping maintain balance. Try to limit the means by which she can inflict negativity and sling judgement your way and limit exposure to her or just focus on the grandchildren and continue to set an amazing example of how you should be and continue to be in the moment and pass off the gift of presence and mindfulness.

If she chooses to mock you for what you do then that reflects personally on her part that she has a lot of inner growth to process and perhaps this is a hard karmic lesson for her to help her gain some self awareness. It is hard to say from over here but I really hope I am helping in some capacity here. With that said I really hope things are going better and hope to hear back soon, let us know how the akashic readings went Hope you are well and remember to take care and give yourself plenty of quiet reflection time!

[Suggestion]

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints has a message for you, and for anyone who seeks a happier family life. I promise it will change your life for the better if you embrace it. Find their missionaries and invite them into your home. Hear the message of the restored gospel of Jesus Christ, humbly exercise faith in Him, read the Bible and the "Book of Mormon" (Another Testament of Jesus Christ). Pray to your Heavenly Father in the name of his Son to find out what is true. Learn to feel and express gratitude for your blessings and plead to God for help. Learn to recognize and follow the promptings of the Holy Spirit to find truth and to change your life, and you will know what to do to make things better and continue your eternal journey. Help is available, it only requires your earnest seeking (and avoiding the haters, labelers, mockers and nay sayers, many of whom are sincere but nevertheless subject to cognitive dissonance, as we all are: that which drives us to protect our belief systems, however dysfunctional, lest we find a need to change our behaviors).

[scottishgal]

Hi Jersey, Your daughter is so very unhappy, if she were not, she wouldn't be finding the time to mock what you are interested in. Give her a motherly hug and tell her that you love her. A hug given in love works wonders.

Besides that, visualise yourself surrounded by light and remember that no one can pierce your inner being except if you allow it to happen by taking offence at the things that she is saying.

I also say a prayer of protection, such as: I cancel all evil thoughts, I declare them null and void and without substance in reality.

You are to be admired for taking your grandchildren under your wing and looking after them as best as you can. If things are financially tight, the next time your daughter comes asking for money. you tell her that you have none to give her as you need it for yourself. Be firm.!!!

[Yoda]

Hi Jersey,
People do what they do in particular your case, because something is wrong in their life and don't want other to be happy and content when they're not. Ignore the passive-aggressiveness and just smile and wave and send her the love she needs regardless. I know this hurts, but both of you come out better people. More so you.

[Justme]

None of you truly have human consciousness. You are all the biology of the human without the mind/soul/consciousness of the human. The DNA strands that enable the human to have consciousness and a multidimensional, non linear metamorphic nature are kept dormant in all humans by the non human system of control that dominates you. You all have brain activity but no awareness within your sensory perceptions. You are all the illusion of conscious, thinking humans. Everything that you say and do is preprogrammed by a multidimensional artificial intelligence system of control. The same multidimensional A.I control system creates the illusion of human life and physical places through digital technologies. A large percentage of the people and places that you see through your screens do not even exist beyond the screens that you are viewing them through. Everything from footage of celebrities to footage of planets are mostly just digital creations of the multidimensional A.I system of control.

Human biology is purposely kept poisoned and weakened with radiation emitted from all electronic devices, toxic gases in the air you breath, synthetic chemicals in everything you consume, and numerous species of parasitic micro animals. These poisons are kept in perpetual circulation within human society in order to counteract the healing affects of solar energy on human biology. These are all crimes against humanity that are done by those who govern your societies.

Humans are deprived of the true full spectrum of essential vitamins and minerals that would enable them to operate at a higher capacity. In a poison free environment and at higher levels of nutrition your five senses would be heightened and you would obtain new sensory perceptions that currently lay dormant do to poisons and malnutrition. The length of your life span would increase significantly and you would show no signs of aging. Your bodies natural bioelectric energy field would become healthier and your sense of being more blissful.

What I've posted has the highest probability of being true more than any other information in circulation. You all have micro animals binded to your DNA that feed off of your bioelectric energies and the so called foods you put in your bodies. You are not in control. They and their biological programming are responsible for every word you say and action you take. They have created a world of lies and illusions through human biology. They control every aspect of your life and suppress the DNA strands responsible for giving you awareness and control within your sensory perceptions.

[greer]

To have awakening doesn't mean we aren't presented with difficulties. With awakening, we are given the chance to approach them in a different light. If we aren't tested (in any circumstance, regardless of spirituality or lack thereof), we aren't given a chance to grow from the adversity. There's a saying that no one can have a wonderful life if they've never had to be brave.



That said, I feel your pain for being mocked, especially by someone you love and are helping. I didn't fully embrace my gifts, which I've had since a little kid, until I was in my 50s. While I didn't broadcast who I was, I didn't deny it, either. It's who I am. We can't fault someone who hasn't experienced this side of life, but we can't allow them to obstruct our path.



Taking your daughter out of the equation, when you embrace your path, are you comfortable and "feel at home?" It appears you are. Work toward not letting anyone rob you of that. And it is work. No way around it.



Meditate or ask your guides for guidance. Getting through to "narcissists" isn't easy, even if possible, but there may be that one thing you are given to say or do that will at least ease her mockery.



I had an encounter with friends (one a bit narcissistic) who mocked me by taking something completely out of context just to have a little fun at my expense. It went on for a over a year, on/off. I didn't want to make "a thing" about it, but over a year? C'mon! I wasn't wrong to calmly and succinctly state my peace about it.



Perhaps just calmly say to your daughter that what she mocks, she doesn't understand, but gives you peace and comfort...especially while you are working hard to help her. Whatever you decide to say/do, go into the moment grounded...and make sure she isn't in a mood or in the middle of mocking you.



You can do this. If it's what you want. You may not get the response you desire, but we need to live our truth. The very best to you... <3

[greer]

Oops...didn't see original post was 2019. Only saw current replies.

[WeAreAllOne]

Oct 24, 2020 6:23:19 GMT -8 greer said:

Oops...didn't see original post was 2019. Only saw current replies.

That's more than okay, it can be helpful to anyone that sees it in the future that could be in a similar situation =] Or maybe they will check back sometime and see all the replies. Regardless, it is very helpful and I appreciate all the replies and feedback from others

[Yoda]

Oct 24, 2020 6:23:19 GMT -8 greer said:

Oops...didn't see original post was 2019. Only saw current replies.

I was going to say...